I wish I could've said goodbye One more time Even wrote a letter And signed it on the dotted lines But when you called me It hard for me to press decline I guess I'm chasin all these feelings that we left behind But I know because you toxic that you mess with minds Didn't mean you have to pick me and the mess we mind I should probley test the waters bеfore I take a dive I guess I need to recognize that these scars on my body carry weight like a soldier Not the person I wished to be when I got older I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder But you left me freezing and it hard to get over Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend Just cause I'm a soldier, I'ma carry to the end I wish I could've left but it hard for me to leave Cause you tuggin on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve I'm not mad that you left, I'm mad that I'm alone You could've said goodbye in person But on the phone Just a wicked way to leave I hate to see you go We had a family but you don't wanna be at home If I ever blame myself There be a bunch of nonsense Not my fault so I guess I will have to cut my losses But you left so fuckin fast that I couldn't process I'm so sorry that I'm the problem that [?] on your conscious I'm sorry that we fallin out of broken patterns Broken arts Broken home Broken shattered Sittin on your knees and you hope it matters Beggin baby please but you came close to damage You can't plead I gotta leave Carry the rest of And I kept my head up and my chest up And I keep my pride but my mind, you fuckin messed up And even though I'm out now You the one that left us These scars on my body carry weight like a soldier Not the person I wished to be when I got older I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder But you left me freezing and it hard to get over Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend Just cause I'm a soldier, I'ma carry to the end I wish I could've left but it hard for me to leave Cause you tuggin on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve I'm tired of yourself and your collarbone Just to remind myself, I am not alone Just hopin that it would pass The path that we're on And all the memories that last after that you gone Now even though I am moving on There a part of me that wish you prove me wrong Some people don't deserve your [?] That my fault cause I made your heart my sanctuary Thought you was the one I was supposed to marry naw Not a scar [?] what I hold to carry on All these emotions I hope to bury naw Ridin on a rollercoaster Oh so scary We said forever But that was only momentarily Oh so scary But I guess that we better off Cause our wounds was affected and your [?] Had a necklace with your letter but I tore it off These scars on my body carry weight like a soldier Not the person I wished to be when I got older I wish we grew closer but we only grew colder But you left me freezing and it hard to get over Cause a broken-hearted person only find a heartless friend Just cause I'm a soldier, I'ma carry to the end I wish I could've left but it hard for me to leave Cause you tuggin on my heart and my heart is on my sleeve