Sorry

Am I that scary or are you only indifferent
Are you ashamed to show me?
Sometimes I know I can be different
Are you proud of me?
Those nights when I sing at the restaurant?
Or would you prefer to be free?
Just too busy to keep your arms open?

Am I just too strange?
To be a girl, more than a friend
Could we speak seriously?
Right now I swear to you I won't ask for it often
Would you forgive me?
If I'd cry while you're having fun
Would you pretend to be free
The minute you were alone with that girl?

Maybe I'm much too close to jealousy
Lost between regrets and melancholy
But give me a reason to be less insecure
Maybe I'm much too close to fantasy
Miles away from reality
Sorry if I'm unable to hear anymore

Am I really that angry?
Or are you just too stoned
Well it's driving me crazy
You may think I'm always paranoid about being wrong
But this pain that cuts so deeply
Tell me, is this the way I was born
‘Cause now I feel I've been real
Just like I've been for so long

Have I spoken clearly?
Should I still wait for the sun?
Stop feeding me stories or apologies
I've already learned to be strong
But keep your hands off of me
‘Cause you know that I won't run
Then once again probably
How I'll swear I'll never ever be that dumb

Maybe I'm much too close to jealousy
Lost between regrets and melancholy
But give me a reason to be less insecure
Maybe I'm much too close to fantasy
Miles away from reality
But apologies I just can't believe anymore
Sorry if I'm unable to hear anymore