The Letter

Dear girl in the garage I owe you the full story
Years ago I buried my son
I found him hanging where he'd hung
Himself out like an old pair of jeans
It's the worst thing that I've ever seen
And the first thing I see when I dream
So I don't do much sleeping now
I just keep wondering how
I lost the only thing I can't replace
Silently screaming in space

And it destroyed our marriage
Threw it from the top story
Maureen couldn't leave the house
She just stood there looking out
Through curtains like he'd be home soon
And the worst thing was that I knew
She'd see him in all that I do
She'd see him in the way I walked
And hear him in the words I'd talk
And catch him in the shadows of my face
We went silently drifting through space

Then there was Queenie
She said I shouldn't take the blame
She was soft and warm and all the things I lack
She helped me carry the heaviest burden
That a father can have upon his back
And I never thanked her for that

But I searched for courage
Like my father did before me
In the bottom of a whiskey glass
Spiralling and spinning fast
And bleeding out with every drink they'd pour me
It was the worst way to deal with my pain
But the first thing that I turned to that didn't turn away
Then one night when I was drunk and hurt
I vandalised my place of work and lay down broken and disgraced
Wishing I could vanish in to space

Then there was Queenie she stood and took the blame
She was kind and brave and all the things I lack
She took the bullet for me, she took the burden
She lost her job and never came back
Oh and I never thanked her for that

Dear girl in the garage
Now you know the full story months ago I left my home
To walk to Queenie all alone
Not for love for I've only ever loved my wife
But she helped me long ago and that is why
I knew I had to go I had to try
And I never would have walked if we never had have talked
And the Sun wouldn't have shone through the cracks
And I'd just like to thank you for that