Cabaret 2

Well, things haven't been so great for me
But then, whose fault is that?
Leave it to me to win the lottery and blow it all on gas money
Silly little trips, to and from the grocery store
I am a whore for the void, nothing less and nothing more

But when I watch the end of New Girl
I still think I might see you
I must be such a fuck up
What a crazy thing to do
Oh, I still can't believe I said it
You were so out of my league
But I'd rather cry because I miss you
Than be with you and be mean

Codependence after sight was a love story to me
And when the plague came, he chose to stay behind to help his team
And I've never loved him less, I've never loved him more
I fought tooth and nail to claim him when the country went to war

Lockdown is a mindset, paranoia saves the house
Speed-running marriage when the plague tied up the town
Go out and kill the city, stay in and wait to die
But at least we had each other while the world was melting down
And then we fought each other while the world was melting down

But when I watch the end of New Girl
I still think I might see you
I feel like such a fuck up
What a crazy thing to do
Oh, I still can't believe I did it
You are so out of my league
But I'd rather talk to you and miss you
Than be with you and be mean

Problem-solving nature struggles, hard with bittersweet
Well, I poked holes when we read love stories in school
Most of the time when we were dating, we called it something else
The only through line was me and you

And I'm so unhappy sometimes, but you're not here just to fill holes
You're not a girly drink to chug, and then throw up
You were the future I had in mind, and I left it all behind
So how could anybody ever be enough?

But when I watch the end of New Girl
I still think I might see you
I feel like such a fuck up
What a crazy thing to do
Oh, I still can't believe I did it
You were always out of my league
But I'd rather take the time to miss you
Than be with you and be mean