Loser

I feel like a loser when you give me that book
I feel like an idiot holding a book
I feel like a loser when I'm crossing my legs
I don't even know what I thought you might say

I felt so invisible when I was a kid
I felt so embarrassed asking for it
Please just look at me, please just look away
I don't even know what I thought I was saying

I need a little male validation
I need to get another diploma
I have no idea what I'm good for
I don't know if I matter anymore
She won't kiss you and you're so mad
But none of you fuckers would make a good dad
Look at my body, don't look at my face
Please don't leave me, please stay away

I have no idea what I was trying to say

I feel like a loser when you say my name
I feel so empty when you offer me praise
Maybe when it's right, I'll feel what I'm meant to feel
Maybe I'm ruined and true love isn't real

When I was invisible, I felt like a creep
I was haunting everybody that I could see
Now that I'm the haunted one, I still feel the shame
It's not as bad, but it's still part of the game

I want some asshole to tell me I'm pretty
I wish the internet could actually love me
I wish that I enjoyed the attention
I wish that I needed nothing from no one
She won't fuck you and you're so mad
But none of you bastards would make a good dad
Look at my body don't look at my face
Please don't leave me please stay away

I have no idea what I wanted to say
I have no idea if you were listening anyway
I have no idea what I was trying to say