Choke It Up

Brain dead dumb fuck everything is fucked up
No good introvert, dirty little pervert
I'll never be what I need to be

Swinging in the air with my feet off the ground
Bobbing in the sea while my limbs are bound
I'll be the moth in your flame, I'll burn up as you fade away
Exhaust fumes, hosepipes, sleeping in for all time
Big bang, expand, painting all the walls red
I'm looking up as the sky is falling away
All my organs fail one by one
Ah fuck it, I don't need them now
Overdose on thoughts of taking it all away
Cut down, bleed dry, they'll think I'm crazy
Lie down, pass by, everything is easy
No-one can care if no-one will know
But you'll know

Collapsing like a lung - these words inside of me
I need to choke them up and spit them out
I'm trying and dying it's eating away at me
I need to just shut down

I don't know what I need, I don't know what to think
Should I suffer anymore, die, or find a shrink?
I just can't believe you can counsell it away
Like I can't believe they won't forget me
Sitting in a dark room singing words of hate
I'm smiling all the times I'm wishing for death
I'm so confused and I don't know what to say
I'm draining the ocean with a plastic cup
Cleaning a bath with an old toothbrush
Starting fires with mud - I won't get very far
Distracting, caring, obsessing, nothing
Draining, purifying, plasticating brainwaves
Clear it up or hide it behind the door and resign myself to life

Collapsing like a lung - these words inside of me
I need to choke them up and spit them out
I'm trying and dying it's eating away at me
I need to just shut down

Shut me up and shut me down
Read my thoughts and let me die now
Choke it up
Choke it up

Collapsing like a lung - these words inside of me
I need to choke them up and spit them out
I'm trying and dying it's eating away at me
I need to just shut down
Choke it up
Choke it up