Feelings

I got a pen in my hand, a piece of paper and some tissues
Crying in my room and writing songs about my issues
I'm viciously wishing that I had someone that would listen
To all the thoughts and problems that I have and help me fix them

'Cause I got no motion in my emotions
Yeah, I feel nothing, I think I'm broken
I've lost my feelings, I can no longer feel things
And the walls are closing in I'm getting crushed by the ceiling

The feeling of feeling real feelings is something
That I cannot feel so I'm spending everyday
Day dreaming of feeling real feelings but
The feelings I'm feeling will never ever be real

I can always say that I'm decent
I can always play pretend
I can always fake all my feelings
I can always act like I'm okay

If you ever feel that you miss me
If I get a call when I'm home
Always been a doubt on my face
That I'm not this strong

And I wish we could live in our paradise
But as long as I'm stuck in my past life
Had my mind racing fiercely from a thousand lies
Now my eyes tearing up, feeling paralyzed

And I'm numb, drowning thoughts with some white wine
Can't comprehend how fucked this mind of mine is
I don't know if you hate me, that's alright
Leaving empty handed with every fight (yes)

Lying down feeling hopeless I can't lie
Wishing I wouldn't fuck up every time
I want to change, I'm not used to the sunlight
Falling back in your arms is my crime

I can always say that I'm decent
I can always play pretend
I can always fake all my feelings
I can always act like I'm okay

If you ever feel that you miss me
If I get a call when I'm home
Always been a doubt on my face
That I'm not this strong

I can always say that I'm decent
I can always play pretend
I can always fake all my feelings
I can always act like I'm okay

If you ever feel that you miss me
If I get a call when I'm home
Always been a doubt on my face
That I'm not this strong