Clawfoot

Four legs bent over a clawfoot
Deluged in panic
Flower petals on my knees
A mosaic drenched in pink

And I wanna love you without your anger
But now you won't tell me what's wrong

It's been a while since I felt safe outside my bedroom
I know I can't make my mind
But I'm a sunflower, all dried up and dead and burnt out
Overwhelmed by what I needed

Bathroom tiles carved into my knees
It breaks my heart to think: Is this conversation worth having?
And I know you're sick and tired of feeling stagnant
But your friends don't push you to grow
I know we could all use some validation

Between my pattern seeking paranoid defenses
And my capacity to change
I tried to loosen knots by pulling on them harder
I didn't give myself no room to breathe

And you can fantasize in time things will work themselves out
Self medicate by running out of town
In neurotic desperation I seek out bodies of water
And learn to cry in total silence

Bathroom tiles carved into my knees
It breaks my heart to think: Is this conversation worth having?
I know you're sick and tired of feeling stagnant
But your friends don't push you to grow
I know we could all use some validation
We could all use some validation
We could all use some validation