Downhill

Downhill
Looks like downhill from here
I'm still wondering how I made it through the year
I've been trying to find the difference
Between the feeling and the fear
But it's unclear

Downhill
Couldn’t stop it if I tried
I still see the broken glass, the flashing lights
I've been selfish, I've been reckless
Never thought I'd feel so numb at twenty-five
At twenty-five

I'm breathing into my chest
I wake up shivering cold
Look at the blood on my hands
Feels like I'm losing control
Through all the tears and the sweat
Feels like I'm starting again
I never said I was done

I'm coming back from the dead
I'm coming back from the dead
I'm coming back from the dead

Downhill
Like a spell I can't resist
I'm still under 'cause I can't get over it
I've tried every kind of poison
But attention is the drug that I can't quit
I can't quit

Downhill
I would stop if knew how
They said I should thank the loss for what I found
Pay respects, I'll lay my flowers
On the grave and salt the ground
I'm going down, I'm going down

I hear the sound of the drums
I feel it under my skin
Beating the walls like a pulse
And now it's pulling me in
I dragged myself through the mud
I talked myself off the edge
I never said I was done

I'm coming back from the dead
I'm coming back from the dead
I'm coming back from the dead

All the bad days and the bouquets
And the words unsaid
All my worst traits, every worst-case
Playing in my head
Overwhelm me, heaven help me
I'm in love with it
Get in, we're going down fucking hill

Downhill
Looks like downhill from here
I'm still wonderin' how I made it through the year
I've been trying to find the difference
Between the feeling and the fear
But it's unclear
It's unclear (it's unclear)

Downhill
Couldn't stop it if I tried
I will, maybe if I make it out alive
I'm awake and I’ve been patient
I've been waiting for the moment to arrive
To arrive
Downhill