Suffer

A silent struggle, no one knows the battle inside
No confidence, no self esteem, jealous at everyone different than me
Loved no more or less than before, so i go further and deeper
Digging an endless hole for myself

Silent scream, the only who hears is me
Can't focus, staring hours to a wall 'til everything turns black
Parasites everywhere, all besides me
The meltdown can continue it's way down deep inside my body
This devil keeps hunting in my head
Hearing voices, accept their message

My body is weak, everything hurts but i feel pride and glory
because i've achieved my point of view
Never enough, nothing is hollow
The pain will not fade, it grows deeper into me
Asked too much? Can i handle it, or have i lost all faith in myself?

Try to get back on track, trust must be stronger than myself
Only so i can rediscover the person in me
Not looking towards the past, only future will tell
Everything lies in my own hands
I view all sickness i've put on to myself
I fight to crawl back, to reach a new point of view
To find the cure that will bring back my peace
My inner peace