Traitor

I gave you everything, my soul, my skin
You smiled at me while hiding your sin
Every touch was a lie, every word a blade
I bled for you, now I'm just decayed
I see your shadow in every room
I taste the venom, I taste the gloom
You left me broken, I'm barely alive
Counting the reasons I shouldn’t survive

I want to fade, I want to disappear
The pain of your love is all I hear
You stabbed me twice, right through my chest
I'm haunted by you, I can’t rest

I drown in whiskey, I choke on pills
I write your name on these bloody hills
The nights are endless, the screams are mine
Your betrayal’s a rope, I'm ready to climb
I scream at the ceiling, nobody comes
I'm talking to shadows, I'm talking to dumb
Every memory’s a knife twisting slow
You left me hollow, you left me cold

I think of the end, I think of the fall
Would it be mercy, would it end it all?
I see your face in every darkened thought
A ghost of love, a lesson I bought

So I sit in silence, I sit in shame
Everything I am, burned in your flame
If death is waiting, I hope it comes soon
I’ll meet it under a blackened Moon