Reaching for Fire

I'm reaching in the past for the dead
All this time falling through my hands
I'm tryna bring back what I can't
Tryna keep it all for my son
Somebody get this mirror from me
I'm starting to see my father
All of these memories ugly
Tryna keep 'em from my daughter

I'm fighting ghosts, can't come to the phone
I'm not at home, I'm lost and alone
Lost and alone, you don't wanna see me alone

Will you come out to the deep end with me
Where it's dark and my mind needs fixing
Where the burden's too heavy to carry?
I got drugs that I just can't kick
Are you afraid of the deep end, baby?
Are you afraid that ya just can't fix me?
My head falls underwater
I got drugs that I just can't kick

I'm reaching in the past for the dead
I'm replaying the things that were said
A table full of women seeing red
Let's put a little boy in charge of cleaning up the mess
Too heavy to shoulder the moment
Move Heaven and Earth and some oceans
Would you meet the new family opponents?
A brand-new storm and some locusts

I'm fighting ghosts, can't come to the phone
I'm not at home, I'm lost and alone
Lost and alone, you don't wanna see me alone

Will you come out to the deep end with me
Where it's dark and my mind needs fixing
Where the burden's too heavy to carry?
I got drugs that I just can't kick
Are you afraid of the deep end, baby?
Are you afraid that ya just can't fix me?
My head falls underwater
I got drugs that I just can't kick

I'm reaching in the past for the dead (ooh)
Mm, nobody got a gun like mine
Better the murder, they fall behind
Have nightmares of these fires, don't know where I'm supposed to go

I'm fighting ghosts, can't come to the phone
I'm not at home, I'm lost and alone
I can't break these chains alone, don't make me beg you

Will you come out to the deep end with me
Where it's dark and my mind needs fixing
Where the burden's too heavy to carry?
I got drugs that I just can't kick
Are you afraid of the deep end, baby?
Are you afraid that ya just can't fix me?
My head falls underwater
I got drugs that I just can't kick

Just save your breath for me
Don't even say my name
Don't save, not me