Always The Same

If this is as bad as it gets
I know that I'll be okay
As long as it doesn't get worse
That is what I always say
Right before it gets worse
It always gets worse

My name is Ciaran
And I sleep on a dining room floor
On a fouton
That I got from a second hand store
I wash dishes part time
For the minimum wage
And my money's always spent
By the time I get paid

I wanna win the lottery
I want a real life
I want to feel love
For more than a night
When one door closes
All the others stay closed
I better get used to being alone

So here's a farewell
To old friends and old teams
The people that I
Can only see in my dreams
I've got these little reminders
Of far away lands
Sleeping in bunkbeds
And playing in bands

My whole life I had nothing to say
I always tried to stay out of the way
But all my nightmares keep coming true
And saying it's all good is all I can do

Half the people I work with
Are never gonna learn my name
So much for new beginnings
They're always the same

They're always the same
Yeah they're always the same