Dead Weight

Sadness set in around sunset
Uninvited, yes
But it's all in how you handle it

I've seen better days, but I'm trying to mend
The candle can only burn at both ends for so long
Dead weight is pulling me under

Sink or swim
I dig the grave I've been living in
When I lived through hell, I found there's far worse things than death
What if I'm waiting for a peace that I can't have?
What if they're right and I pushed that grace out of grasp?

The silence is deafening
The misery is setting in
I fear that I'm just making waves
To keep from drowning in unhappiness
The silence is deafening
The misery is setting in
I feel myself sinking again
Suffer to survive

The grass was never green on either side
I think of nothing but I
And focus only on the shadows when the sun shines
Growing up
I found out nothing was good enough
I'll fight my way to the surface or bust
Under the weight of hopelessness, feeling crushed
Can't give in to giving up

This world showed me no love
I bit the bullet and toughened up
They'll give you nothing, their words are vacant
This life is what you make it