A Spark

A spark
What is a spark?
How many times will that kind of a feeling come shimmering past–
The kind I regard with such conviction that it could shift my whole path?
Trace my trajectory into the dark
Place blind trust into healed scars
They come, they go
Like the waves in deep space flow
Sometimes the nights I fear most are lying there knowing a spark went cold
Pushed away love to a place unknown
Bartered and sold all of my own
No foresight to guide me, no heart to make whole

Safe in your embrace
Still getting ahead of myself
Don't let me get swept away
By all of the dreams, the lights, the plans that I make

Stars cross and meet for a moment
Fleeting points of symmetry
Everything I need could be right here
Slow the seasons and let me off
'Cause I couldn't stop the clock

Stars cross and meet for a moment
Fleeting points of symmetry
No time to say goodbye before we find we've lost each other to the turning of the years
Everything I need could be right here
Slow the seasons and let me off
Trust me to walk away, and I'll rue the day forever 'cause I couldn't stop the clock

I wanna wake up to the Sun in my window
Taste the cold, bitter winter's rain
I wanna keep learning the things that move me
I wanna feel pleasure, I wanna feel pain
I wanna be feminine and be masculine and be motivated and calm
I wanna build up an identity around how I feel in your arms

But if I'm chasing butterflies, then uncertainty is the choice
These rites of passage that I seek get lost to all of this noise
Don't let me lose sight of the fact that I'm never stopping this clock
If a spark's enough to restructure me, then imagine all that it costs

Stars cross and meet for a moment
Fleeting points of symmetry
No time to say goodbye before we find we've lost each other to the turning of the years
Everything I need could be right here
Slow the seasons and let me off
Trust me to walk away, and I'll rue the day forever 'cause I couldn't stop the clock
(I couldn't stop the clock)

If I had the hindsight to know I made the right move
Maybe I would be gentler and less cruel
I wanna look back in ten years and feel, sincerely, that this was a risk worth taking
And I have nothing else left to prove

I wish I could make promises and speak certainties and be true
But truth be told, I'm terrified that this path could take me from you
With tunnel vision I'll sacrifice my heart
To find the power that comes with fear just like the light in a spark