Keep Yourself Awake

There's a light under the door, watch it seep through the crack
Keep my body still, but my mind is saying: Get back
Why's it looking at me? Why is it looking at me like that?
Didn't ask for company, now it's locking on me, it's like that

Get under my skin, build a wall to hide behind
You're tearing me up, turning my water into wine
Don't you like my new design?
(God is asleep, so why can't I?)

If I could only get a second to myself
Then maybe I would own what's mine
Step into light, claim the power, take it away
Instead I'm climbing up the walls, taking the fall, and climbing again

See me the way I see myself at night
You'll be safest if you keep yourself awake
It can't be mistaken
The dream is a lie

The dream is a lie
The dream is a lie

I'm locked up, full of doubt, tryna figure out
How to haunt somebody in the same way they've freaked me out
I'm a freak, I'm a fraud, I'm afraid
I'll be paralysed forever, keep repeating what I say

When that light inside's not hitting the same, 'cause it's being corrupted by another
I've got a problem, it's nothing like I'm told, motherfucker
If I'm gonna feel alive, I'm gonna feel it alone!

The dream is a lie
The dream is a lie
The dream is a lie
The dream is a lie

A serpent's tongue on the edge of the blade
I walk this line knowing I'll never be the same
To torture myself through my younger eyes
The dream is a lie

See me the way I see myself at night
You'll be safest if you keep yourself awake
The dream is a lie