Safety (feat. Sean Harmanis)

More hours pass - I'm listening for the other side
A steady rhythm, I hear it from the bottom of the river tonight
No expectations, no delusions, no pride
With nothing left to lose, I think I'm learning what it feels like

To question
(No hesitation with the answers)
To live, to learn, to find
(Or to turn your back to death and never know?)

I’ve found my fear, it lives under a microscope
Not the beast I thought I knew but quiet, clever, fuelled on hope
I’ve seen the devil and they don’t believe me
With every move I make it’s harder to see

Round and round it goes
“Just once more and then I promise you can go”
Peeling stickers off of plastic bottles and covering my eyes
(‘Cause one more second of this shit will send me blind)

Maybe somewhere I’ve never been
They’d let me fill up my lungs with fire
‘Cause I’ve broke my inhibition, I'm over the decisions
Won’t you take me to walk the wire?

I have found my body, found my soul but it’s not me
Got me thinking I'm better off sippin’ on medicine instead of coffee
What kinda warning label, safety first
Pin cushion, experimentation, hyperfixating
Panic button brain have I created?!
Running through a hall of mirrors just to find new identity
Spinnin’ round in circles
Flip a coin to decide on a paranoia this week
I’ve seen the devil and they don’t believe me
With every move I make it’s harder to see

Round and round it goes
“Just once more and then I promise you can go”
Peeling stickers off of plastic bottles and covering my eyes
(‘Cause one more second of this shit will send me blind!)

Maybe somewhere I’ve never been
They’d let me fill up my lungs with fire
‘Cause I’ve broke my inhibition, I'm over the decisions
Won’t you take me to walk the wire?

Oh, mother, can you hear me when I say
That I'm afraid to die, but less than I'm afraid to stay
The someone I could be is fuckin’ waiting in a shell
But if I crack it I could break and I’d be in a worse hell

To be afraid of my own shadow
Is worse than any fate that I could run from

Counting back slow
Closest thing to stopping time I’ll ever know
A fleeting high that sends me lower even still
So still I’ll sit, until I'm nothing but an afterglow

Maybe somewhere I’ve never been
They’d let me fill up my lungs with fire
‘Cause I’ve broke my inhibition, I'm all out of decisions
Won’t you take me to walk the wire?

Yeah, take me to my resting place
And let me dance on the grave all night
I thought I’d live forever if I wore a warning sign