Upside Down

If I look too close, I fear for what I'll find
There's something wrong with the picture and I think I've known for a while
Perfect families of stone politely crumbling in wax-cast homes
It's sickening to watch as beauty goes awry, am I entranced or am I horrified?

This life, you said
It's easy upside down
The truth is rarely quite as sweet unless you lie to yourself
Don't open your eyes until you've hit the bottom

All I wanted was to trust myself
Never altered by opposing forces
In a dream I never needed any help
But defiance hurt me more than any fortune

If I look too close, more fractures reveal themselves
And when I place my hands to the glass, I begin to wear them as well
When a flaw turns into a fault turns into a lie
I feel the lonely people turn to me and bare their true smiles
(Now something wrong feels right, oh)

All I wanted was to trust myself
Never altered by opposing forces
In a dream I never needed any help
But defiance hurt me more than any fortune

Close the door
No longer recognise the place I knew
To see is powerful, to look away is more
The defiance hurt me more than any fortune

This life I found
I'll live it upside down
This life I found
I'll live it upside down
To suffer in silence feels nice at the bottom