Wrong Kids

Confusion sets in the most
If I saw your ghost I would use this to show you the whole
The thoughts you provoke light the room I’m in
And I hate surprises, unevenly divided
Now I can’t deny that I wish we we’re both talking like we always did
Cause you made it easy to speak
Now this old home remembers you
I often smell the same perfume you wore on the night we first met
Well maybe you forgot you were wonderful
Or the way we connected as kids
When you saw California, we’re you disappointed?
And did you think your dream would look different?

I think that this conversation lacks sustenance
Now that your’e not even here to talk back
As you pushed away from me
Secluding you from everything
I hoped that I’d see you again
Cross my heart and hope to die
I hope you find this easier

What if there was someone who needed you
But the drugs kept you sick far from home?
Oh you we’re too young, too cool with too much to lose
You were blinded, and fucked up, and gone
Why did you leave long before I did?
And was I meant to leave early too?
To my displeasure, we both grew together
To be torn apart entirely too soon

You’re always caught up in the wrong place
At the wrong time, with the wrong kids
How can we smile if we can’t love anything with confidence?
How could you be here for me
When you're way too fucking high for this?
Numbness negates your decision

I think that this conversation lacks sustenance
Now that you're not even here to talk back
As you pushed away from me
Secluding you from everything
I hoped that I’d see you again

And I’ll think of you still till the moment I die
And live like you did when you fought for your life
Your phone call won’t come in the middle of the night
Well it’s a glimpse at the hard truth
You never know what you will lose
Wherever you may be tonight
I hope you find it easier