Killing Me

one by one by one- one at a time
out of time, can't even afford to breath
decimate my own mind-
one intent,
because it's now and forever-
better hold your peace
increase, decrease, decease, release your mind
i'm staring right back at the face I hate
but not for long, forget the words, they're wrong
you can talk your shit just get your fucking story straight

killing me-
does the temptation turn you on?
killing me-
my only hope, salvation- gone
killing me-
internal confrontations spawn
killing me-
fucked up again, some friend

you'd better be ready for the worst-
expect the worst
modify me misery, i've grown soft inside
retrogressing thought with time
enemy of god designed to piggy back-
pig, piggy, piggy back ride
all the way down, all the way down, all the way home
all the way back to where their father fell
i'd hesitate to talk cause I can feel it in me
i'm just too pussy-
i'd rather rot in heaven than in hell

killing me- suck it, suck it back further-
this must be my penalty,
a sneak attack murdering all my integrity
it's self destruction,
now i'm my own worst enemy
identity is killing me

killing me- why can't i see ahead of me
recently i'm thinking i don't need you anymore
killing me- i'll never be what i wanna be
no release cuz i know i'm my own worst enemy

now it seems to be me
and it seems to me-
i am my own worst enemy

killing me- my own lonely pretentious philosophy