Because I Tried

The weight, my chest like thunder
The stench, the ground she's under
As if nobody loved her
But I loved her

How has it come to this?
Who gets off on unconsciousness?
I feel so powerless.
Am I a fool because I tried?
Am I a fool because I tried?

The violent crack of thunder
The anxious air she's under
As if I didn't love her
But I love her

How has it come to this?
A week's worth of happiness
Has it all been meaningless?
Am I to blame because I tried?
Am I to blame because I tried?

How many months have I?
How many times did I?
You were closer than I
How many moments have I?
How many times did I?
But you were farther than I
I can sleep because I tried