Daddy (Words That I Never Said)

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Early 90’s August fifth
First time I caught da bliss
A king was born, ya second child and ya last
Fatherhood is complicated, you never shied from da task
Pops was a hustler, always providing
When I fell you pick me up, that’s never surprising
Left Jamaica, traveled da world on a ship
Searching for em chips
Ungrateful me, hateful me
Ain’t nobody there for me
Before Kevin died, Life was a joy then
Running wild in da bushes, playing with my toys then
First time I felt love, I was Poochie’s boyfriend
Fun times, heartbreak, watching da joy end
Ya boy growing up, mom got issues
Taking it out on me, them days are far from blissful
Where my father at, damn I miss you
I felt lonely
Snuck out da house hanging with da homies
Mom found out, drew da belt on me
Entangled soul, far from perfect
No one on this earth is
Black River Jamaica where my turf is
Trying to find my purpose
Never lost my way, always stay aligned cause my soul’s ecliptic
Hoping I could touch ya heart with this message even though it’s cryptic
My father, my guardian, my rock, my home
I’d be lost without you cause mom couldn’t do it on her own
Raised like a soldier, my heart burns when I smile
Cause God don’t care, friends ain’t loyal
Be faithful my child, these friends ain’t for you
Took on these New York streets, I'm a grown man now
Slinging swords like Conan now
Disobeying my old man now
Found myself in jail, oh damn! Wow!
Made it through though
Mind over matter, every trap got a loop hole
Success is taking me longer, going through ups and downs
Evaluating my friends, loyal to the ones who stuck around
Riding wit my dawgs, they bucking now
Back in da streets hustling now
Pops getting older, getting sick too, pressure’s building up
On top of that I'm black and em cops killing us
I can’t be a failure, my destiny’s greater and I know it
If I should die, I die heroic
My life’s historic
The flyest poet
Káy

I give my life to you cause you gave life to me
This life ain’t right for you, cause you a king rightfully
But God don’t care, my heart hurts when I pray
Hand you the Sun, Moon and stars, as the night turns day
As the fire blaze
Send a dove to my pops, I love you, words I never say

Oh oh oh, yeah
I love you more than I can say
I'll love you twice as much tomorrow
Oho, I love you more than I can say
Oh oh oh, yeah
I miss you every single day
Why must my life be filled with sorrow