Flicker Through The Mist

Don't tell me calm down like it's relevant or something
Listen, it isn't my fault that my development was stunted
Every day my heart rate is well up in the hundreds
Swear to God my chest feels like an elephant is stomping

I just wanna feel like I really do exist
Know this pill won't last but it'll do the trick
Moonlight beams as I flicker through the mist
I would trade it all to not feel invisible as this

I'm scared at night, I'm pleasant when the morning comes
There's three of me, I wish it meant there's more to love
I needed friends, I found 'em in the form of drugs
It's hard to fit in when you never knew what normal was

Flicker through the mist
Watch me flicker through the mist
You ain't never felt invisible as this
Moonlight beam while I flicker through the mist

You ain't never felt invisible as this
You ain't never felt invisible as this
Wonder if do exist
Moonlight beam while I flicker

If someone threaten to leave me then I'ma let 'em
It's easy for me 'cause in my head I already left 'em
I'm greedy 'bout my needs 'cause nobody ever met 'em
Wear my trauma like my armor I'm ready for Armageddon

If only I believed I'm not evil as my deeds
I could finally smile like the people that please
When I close my eyes to feel peaceful when I breathe
The shame creeps back like peekaboo it's me

I'm scared at night, I'm pleasant when the morning comes
There's three of me, I wish it meant there's more to love
I needed friends, I found 'em in the form of drugs
It's hard to fit in when you never knew what normal was

Flicker through the mist
Watch me flicker through the mist
You ain't never felt invisible as this
Moonlight beam while I flicker through the mist

You ain't never felt invisible as this
You ain't never felt invisible as this
Wonder if do exist
Moonlight beam while I flicker