Thus I Cry

Contrarities absorbing my mind
Tempting is the darkness I see
Consuming the thoughts I once beheld
Desperate fear of the yet unknown

Walk deep in my mind, where I try to escape
You'll hear desperate shouts of my soul tempting obscurity
Blinded I feel by all the things my eyes have seen
Watched - I'm being towards this absurd rising domain

Drained down towards the horror of my life
Try to break free, but my cries are all that remains

Why was I born into this frigid regime
Did I have to sleep to hear my cries take form
A nightmare I will see take form
Entwined I'm being in this overreaching insanity

Chocking on all I'm so used to seeing
Death a figur growing in my being
Immortality set me free, oh I hate to see
Awake me from this nightmare endlessly

Yes, what I fear is my own corporal frigidity
Delusions of the world draining what is called sanity
Have to break free before I'm trapped in this flesh
Oh, can't you see I'm being tortured with regret

Cold and primitive insanity remains
Innocense cauterized dripping down in stains
Have to find a substitute to safety and warmth
The one I've known since I was born

Primitive steps towards an adolescent death are made
Constadicting what I've learned
Reality is my never ending fate
Drawn down into the dungeons of hate
Don't try to stop me, it is too late
I have no more dreams to feed
They are all here in my wretched fantasy

Thus I cry I'm withered away in this world
The dust that burns, my mind lost its conscious state
Thus I die no hands tried to take my fate

Now living on the high waves of this lethal drug is all I lust
Reality has become a hymn that I forgot
Buried in this concrete jungle
Throughts of the summer that now is lost
I suffer convulsions if death not I ray
Come forth my dying day

Chocking on all I'm so used at seeing
Death a figur growing in my being
Immortality set me free, oh I hate to see
Awake me from this nightmare endlessly

Thus I cry I'm withered away in this world
The dust that burns, my mind lost its conscious state
Thus I die no hands tried to take my fate

Thus I enhance this distortion of my visionary world
I remain in frigid hands, distrust the world I've lost
Explore death as I inject the pump and shoot
Feeling eludes I'm desperately lost as I remain