Isho

Love is something I can't find
It's stuck inside my mind
Gives me wings
I hope I find it

Love is something I can't find
It's stuck inside my mind
Gives me wings
I hope I find it

Swappin' oxygen with smoke in my chest
You can see it every time I take a breath
In the depths seein' death to the right and the left
In the night gettin' high while I'm lightin' up cess
Till the day that I die my mind ain't findin' rest

You don't know shit 'bout the lives that I led
If I died right here it'd be my 89th death
Ash in the path on the floor where I step
Gettin' high passin' time in the morgue with my dad
Died and found death then was forcеd to forget
Used to want a family got orphaned instеad
On the floor where I bled where the poor only tread
Fuckin' with me then that's russian roulette
With a full fuckin' clip and a gun to your head

My girl says I'm smokin' way too much again
In the graveyard I'm lightin' up blunts for my friends
Please don't forget who inspired these kids
They said I'm fallin' off then all their numbers stopped
What a bitch irony is
This government showin' a perfect example
Of what fuckin' modern day tyranny is
Might stick a knife in this kid, he keep eyein' me bitch
No matter how much I run from demons
They seem to just find me again
In my room thinking I'm better off dying again

Love is something I can't find
It's stuck inside my mind
Gives me wings
I hope I find it
At 15 I stayed in my room all depressed
Takin' pills that were pressed now I'm overly stressed
I'm bleedin' can't feel my heart beatin'
Doc said he might have to rip open my chest

If I die, don't you cry, just know it's for the best
Tell my son that I love him and I tried my best
Know suicide ain't designed for the rest
And they'll probably think that I'm weak when I'm dead
There's enough lines in the life that I've left
And the people inside of this life that I've met
To be someone who they could never forget

Just know I'm findin' rest when I'm finally dead
My girl wouldn't feel like she should be if I was the one who was dead
Without me always makin' her stressed
If my brain continues to function
I hope that our memories fill up my head

At least it would be like I ain't even left
In the graveyard there's blood to the right and the left
Ain't felt alright in my mind or my head
My whole life alright fine let's just cut to the end
In my dreams I've seen death almost five million times
If we talkin' honestly what's one more death
Cigarettes mixed up with cess while I grab on her breast
Four thousand nights we've stayed dead in this bed

Love is something I can't find
It's stuck inside my mind
Gives me wings
I hope I find it

Love is something I can't find
It's stuck inside my mind
Gives me wings
I hope I find it