Fig Tree

Another day gone under my fig tree
Grey as everyone's dreams
As thin as the leaves around me
As I'm left to see my fruit dropping
Dead on the ground by my feet
Almost nothing left to eat
Holding onto belief
Another life must be somewhere
Up in the leaves
The best path must be the one I can't see
If I'm left to be, I'll stay here just watching everything
I could be
Die in front of me and I don't want to see, no
No

Gold like Versace
I love it when he slaps me
If I fall, catch me
But they never catch me
That's me in the back seat
Looking nasty
Looking plastic when they pass me
You know I like you
Drive to the drive thru
Drinks with the ice cubes
Don't you think that I'm cute?
And then when it's time to
I'll leave you where I find you
It's hard to decline you
When I'm too high to
And
It's okay if you can't reply to me
I'm too weak
I'm too shy to speak
Say I'm fine but I cried for weeks
So you like me?
What's on your mind but me?
There's a big hole right inside of me
But I feel whole each time you write to me
I'm scared, but scared feels right to me
Why do I want him
When he's not right for me
Oh

I tried to live as if I want to live
I tried block him out
It still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing
I tried to live as if I want to live
I tried block him out
It still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing

Don't die now, you need to leave the house (house)
Don't fall asleep now the Sun is almost out (out)
So when is it my turn
It's not safe to thrive, it's too late to hide
And I'm
I'm out to suit the worst
So tell me when is my turn (ooh)

(Tell me)
(Tell me you love me)

Sometimes when I talk to my friends
I feel more alone and that doesn't make sense
Sometimes I'd be lying if I said that I don't think I'd be better off dead
If I died would I make a headline?
If I died would anybody be surprised?
If I died would they love me online?
Who'd I be remembered by?
Who'd forget me in time?
Side eyes
Toss my hair to the side, I'm fine
Everybody's going to die, that's fine
I'm with you in another life, that's nice
We met before we died
Side eyes
Toss my hair to the side, I'm fine
Everybody's going to die, that's fine
I'm with you in another life, that's nice
We met before we

I tried to live as if I want to live
I tried block him out
It still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing
I tried to live as if I want to live
I tried block him out
It still comes pouring in
I'm changing, I'm changing
I'm changing, I'm changing

Tell me you love me
Tell me you love me
Tell me you love me
Tell me you love me