The Fields Are Frozen

It was the way they put me away
I thought it was my fault I was raped
Reaching out for the night light's flame
Burnt by the bulb in the metal frame
It replays and it replays
Painting childish colours grey
I can't place the blame nothing will change
There's no name to say
There's no easy way

How do I feel so exposed but so invisible?
Hm
If I refuse to live I'm invincible
Hm

Keep your score
Keep me small
Keep your score
Keep me small
Break me in
Take it all
Cutting skin
Curtain call

Clenching my fists hoping no one will notice
I don't fit
My clothes are too big
My history in cabinets squeezing into paper clips
Facing the painted bricks
Watching the way I sit
I have to face the days I chase won't ever come my way
I turn, I turn, I turn away
I didn't ever want to bring you shame
I just wanted to play

How do I feel so exposed but so invisible?
Hm
If I refuse to live I'm invincible
Hm

Keep your score
Keep me small
Keep your score
Keep me small
Break me in
Take it all
Cutting skin
Curtain call