A Billion Lies

My thoughts are underwater
Drowning in oceans, I've cried
My expectations hinder
So I never feel qualified

I tried to put it back together, but
I don't know if I remember how my head works
I know, it hurts

I hate the way I fall down a million times
I hate the way I've given a billion tries
Yeah, I see the world and I wish I could set it right
So I won't define myself with a billion lies

I wish I slept way better
There's too many things on my mind
So I can't just blame the weather
And act like this isn't my life

I tried to put it back together, but
I don't know if I remember how my head works
I know, it hurts (yeah)

I hate the way I fall down a million times (million times)
I hate the way I've given a billion tries (billion tries)
Yeah, I see the world and I wish I could set it right
So I won't define myself with a billion lies

Tell me this, tell me that
Tell me, don't you know you wanna
Sticks and stones, break my bones
Yadda, yadda, yadda, yadda
I'm a fraud if I'm honest
Life's a con, straight demonic
Tell me the truth
What's wrong inside?

I tried to put it back together, but
I can't seem to find the words
Shelter in the word inside
Growing in me like a vine
R.I.P. to the lies I'm blinded by

I hate the way I fall down a million times
I hate the way I've given a billion tries
Yeah, I see the world and I wish I could set it right
So I won't define myself with a billion lies