I Am Ashamed

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I used to nuture bitterness, to 
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count up every slight
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The world's a moral wilderness and 
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I have felt its blight
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Self-pity ruled, resentment 
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rained, no one understood my pain
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I spiraled down in murky night 
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insisting that I had the right
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To hate and hate again


[Chorus 1]
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I am ashamed, ashamed
Em   C        G    B7 B/D#
O my Lord, forgive


[Verse 2]
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But then the gospel taught me how 
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to contemplate the cross
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For there Christ died for me and 
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now I've glimpsed the bitter cost
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He bore abuse and blows and hate, 
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He did not retaliate
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Triumphant malice sneered and 
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tossed, blind rage at him, He 
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never lost
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The love that conquers hate


[Chorus 2]
Em    C        G      B7 B/D#
I am ashamed, ashamed
Em   C        G    B7 B/D#
O my Lord, forgive
Em    C        G      B7 B/D#
I am ashamed, ashamed
Em   C        G    B7 B/D#
O my Lord, forgive


[Verse 3]
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To make no threat, to smile, 
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forgive, to love and not because I 
must
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For Jesus showed me how to live 
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and trust the one who's just
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To suffer all and feel the pain, 
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certain that the loss is gain
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Oh God I want so much to trust, 
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to follow Jesus on that cross
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To love and love again, to love 
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and love again


[Chorus 3]
Em    C        G      B7 B/D#
I am ashamed, ashamed
Em   C        G    B7 B/D#
O my Lord, forgive
Em    C        G      B7 B/D#
I am ashamed, ashamed
Em   C        G    B7 B/D#
O my Lord, forgive
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forgive