The Lotus Eaters

Down the ward, the men are dreaming,
drooling in their cots.
Pricks of blood in every elbow,
I am no better.
It's just that I'm awake
It's just that I'm awake and walking.
Walking.

Hear my footsteps down the hall.
Now I'm smelling the night air,
crunching gravel as I walk, walk, walk.

Never, never, never, never will I
never will I sleep like that again
Never, never, never, never, never,
Never will I sleep like that, sleep like that…

And I'm lost in this night
I'm lost in this night
I'm already lost, but not as lost as them
And I'm lost in this night
I'm lost in this night
I'm already lost, but not as lost as them
my sleeping, drooling, smiling men

I'm not as lost,
I'm not as lost
I'm not as lost as them.