The Longing

Am I blind, am I afraid to be everything
I've ever dreamed of
Well I don't even have the guts to see
If there's another sad person
Going down like me
I'm standing in a pool of blood
And that's despair I fuckin' tell you
Am I fading to infinity or just paralyzed
There's no ability

You say you don't give a fuck
What I do with my life
But won't you please look back and

Won't you wait for me?
Won't you wait for an old friend like me?

In time - they say that time can heal you
But I'm already behind
All dark with a soul to see through
A mind to reach and a face to hate too
Blood in my eyes so I can't cry with you
I'm not afraid that they'll see me
The wrong choice, but the right solution
Hard effect that explode in confusion

You say you don't give a fuck
What I do with my life
But won't you please look back and

Won't you wait for me?
Won't you wait for an old friend like me?

Desperate times calls for desperate measures
And a desperate man that's what I am
No love to lean on - no friend to call on
No innocence to share at night

There's no sleep till peace is found
But my anxiety is bringing me down
A hard life, but life is hard
Want to be idolized but I'm not

Am I alone in here?
Am I alone in fear?
All my time I spend waiting on something
I'll never be

You say you don't give a fuck
What I do with my life
But won't you please look back and

Won't you wait for me?
Won't you wait for an old friend like me?