paint

Woke up in a pool of sweat
Told me I haven't paid my debt
Mommy said I shouldn't fret
I'll proly go and pass this test
Realize what's before my eyes
Soundly take off my disguise
Funny how I didn't know
But it felt like I loved you so
The pictures hanging on my wall
Always reminded me of fall
The colors had specific sounds
Couldn't tell when I looked around

How am I the bigger when I never took out my gun and played along to all your games but never really felt the same
I took your word and ran with it, but now it's time to call a quits I'm tired, and I'm bored of this like paint on walls the way it sits

The Sun sets on my day, I cry
The tears flowing from my eyes
My thoughts keep getting worse and worse
The xanax I put in your purse
Might kill me but I will not hurt
Meaningful but just hearing words
Drift off to another place
Might be nice but another day

How are you so hyperfocused, buzzing in my ears the locusts
Eat my flesh and beg for more, don't really know what's left in store
Someone's taking over now, so can you help me figure out
Like what I did the cherry pits all crushed around me what is this