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I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On the salty lips and said to them
"I love you... Bye" (bye)
Give way to the weight that's dragging and pulling through me now

I've got something to say
About the last twelve months I've lived
I'm not the same kid
I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know

I take a pill every day
To help me deal with life

And, oh, my God!
I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at home

Give way to the weight that's dragging and pulling through me now

I've got something to say
About the family that I've lost
I hope my mother and father think that they raised a healthy boy

Who needs the help of a shrink
To even leave the house?

And, oh, my God!
I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at home

I'm not the same kid
I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know
I'm not the same kid
I was when I was younger
I just thought you
I just thought you should know

Give it away to the weight that's dragging and pulling through me now
And now, and now, it's finding it's way and making it's way to let go

I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On the salty lips and said to them
"I loved you"

Just follow
The pain and swallow
Too hard to swallow them
Down your throat
Too hard to swallow (I have to swallow)
The pain follows (the pain, it follows)
And this is what I feel
Down your throat

My best fried is a man
With a lab coat, entering
I hold my shaking hand
And it gives me medicine

I hope this makes me feel at home
But they slowly steal my soul
I tell him I still feel alone
"Don't worry someday I promise you will feel at home"

And, oh, my God!
I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And, oh, my God!
I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And, oh, my God!
I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of