Float

Why can’t I see that I'm the one needs change
Everyone I love find a way to run away
Leaving me alone like why you not stay
I know that it’s me how I handle my pain

And I'm sorry for hurt that
I caused you to make you never wanna come back
You told jokes that I never could’ve laugh at
I was dealing with the trauma but you saw that

You tried to make change
But I stayed in my place
So I'm sorry for my ways
And the mistakes
I don’t wanna stay same
But it’s too safe
Everything Id say
To make you stay

Now you gone and I'm stuck here so alone
I loved you, but I'm sorry that I couldn’t show
We realize what we had when we we let it go
But it’s too late now and you’ll never know

I just gotta float
Don’t you try to catch me
Please just don’t think less of me

My hearts broke
How’d this get so messy
Why be life so depressing

Act like a monster
Feel like an imposter
In my own life all the time
Wonder how I lost her

That’s not my problem
I don’t need to solve em
I don’t fucking got the time
To climb up from the bottom

All the time I been stuck in my mind
Thinking bout how I just lost the love of my life
Now I'm stuck in the state want a end of my life
I'm Too scared to say that so I tell her I'm fine

Say I'm okay
But I'm not
Really miss you
All the pain
Coming back
And I cannot call you

You the only to ever to make the problems away
You the only thing that’s ever really made me wanna stay

But I did it to myself
So I don’t deserve your help
I'm in love with all the pain I don’t know if you can tell
I'm too caught up in my mind
I kept telling you these lies
How I wish I never did now you out of my life

Alone I'm here today like I’ll be inside my grave
Never make a change so nobody ever stay
Go and let me be 'cause I know this is my fate
That I finally have to float for mistakes that I have made

I just gotta float
Don’t you try to catch me
Please just don’t think less of me

My hearts broke
How’d this get so messy
Why be life so depressing

Act like a monster
Feel like an imposter
In my own life all the time
Wonder how I lost her

That’s not my problem
I don’t need to solve em
I don’t fucking got the time
To climb up from the bottom