Meltdown

How could I've let things get so far gone?
I never figured it would come to this.
The caution signs were there,
I just ignored them all, now
I'm a fucking wreck and it's all my fault.
If I could say just one last thing, it would be thank you,
and now I finally see the person that
I want to be. I had made a grave mistake, misprioritized. Hindsight afforded me a look into myself. Didn't act the way I should, now I'm on my last nerve, If I had another chance I'd give what you deserve. You deserve more. I've fucked up everything, like humanitarian intervention. I tear myself apart like schizophrenic hallucinations. So now I'm out here on my own, and I am on the run. It's time to rethink who I am, and what I should have done. I've made mistakes, I'll learn from them. I hope one day you can forgive,
I won't forget.