Better Off Numb

Just holidays and barely those holidays
Our good terms are not immune to decay
(You're not sad again, are you, splashgvng?)
I tried but I'm still away
And you've been fucking his brains out
Don't look at me as if there was a sorry to say
I would care but

I been better off numb, I been better off numb
I been better off numb, I been better off
I been better off numb, I been better off numb
I been better off numb, I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes from some shit I shoulda never saw
I don't need a lifeline
I don't need a good night, I just drink until I shut it off

I've never met someone so geared on my failure, good job
At least I squeezed some meaning into your shitty life, huh?
When I die an early death, I hope that you can come
When the hatred in your heart is now evicted with my pulse
Break the home, break my bones and see my soul snap too
I'm alone most the time, you're not restricting anything new
I like getting scary, you know that I do
I know you're tryna be a boss, good for you
What the fuck they turn me down for?
I am never going out more
But I guess he wasn't a regular guy
I hope that you choke on your vomit and die
My messages AIDS, I do not open them
I'm high as fuck from this bud, it's like opium
I don't wanna live to get by
You're literally here once and it's over after that
You fucking idiot, do what you want
When you touch his fucking dumbass, you suck
I fucking hate you

I been better off numb, I been better off numb
I been better off numb, I been better off
I been better off numb, I been better off numb
I been better off numb, I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes from some shit I shoulda never saw
I don't need a lifeline
I don't need a good night, I just drink until I shut it off

I'm torn apart and I'm dirty
If it's like this, fuck thirty
I wanna die right now
Baby, I'm sorry, I'm fucked, I can't talk right now
She lies, she just loves him to death
I don't compare to that hex, I suck the tits off her chest
Time waits for nobody
Crossed lines become common knowledge
Bullshit, you were with friends? That's bullshit
I was the culprit before
I feel projection in my point of view

Yeah, I been better off numb, I been better off numb
I been better off numb, I been better off
I been better off numb, I been better off numb
I been better off numb, I been better off
As the bodies grow dry
And I bleed from my eyes from some shit I shoulda never saw
I don't need a lifeline
I don't need a good night, I just drink until I shut it off