September (part II)

‌Nevrfall
Wrote this song around 7 o'clock this morning
With the drapes open on a Wednesday while it's pouring
How can I live like this?
I was waking up at like 4 o'clock
Now I'm sleeping in but I'm up by 6

Oh, September's gone but I still think about it
SSRIs might help but, still, my vision's clouded
You do not see my fight 'cause, still, I smile
Last time it had been genuine, I can't account (Okay)
I put these drugs on my tongue and pray to God it help
It doesn't, but up in this studio, I can feel myself now
I haven't eaten in two days and my breath is foul
But I am not tryna impress no one, I'm just being myself
Won't you take your time with me?
Past events make trust hard to believe in
I've been healed but, still, I bleed
Please, take precautions loving me

Wrote this song around 7 o'clock this morning
With the drapes open on a Wednesday while it's pouring
How can I live like this?
I was waking up at like 4 o'clock
Now I'm sleeping in but I'm up by 6

I don't wanna hurt anymore, yeah
And I don't wanna try anymore, yeah
I would accept my fate while I lay on the floor in the mess I have built here
I'm rotting
You use your body, we don't use words here
My fate has taken all of me
Free will never meant too much to me
I always make the wrong decisions anyways
So I sit back and let life create

Wrote this song around 7 o'clock this morning
With the drapes open on a Wednesday while it's pouring
How can I live like this?
I was waking up at like 4 o'clock
Now I'm sleeping in but I'm up by 6

How did I do all this shit without ever leaving my room?
None of my friends are bumping my shit but I'm still on the move
Still on the move, mid-afternoon but I'm still on the juice
My baby confused, she tell me I live like there's nothing to lose

Uh, I think I might just give up
I just made my mind up
This is no real shit, shut up
(Yeahhh) Fuck up out of here
Don't worry about my fate (Haha)