I'm Trying

She said I'm not
pointing fingers
And he said yes you are
'Cause you wouldn't
bring it up if you weren't
If I told you I'd been
walking
Out in the dark night
thinking
Would you take as truth
this alcholoics word?
I can't change what's
done is done
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I
don't curse myself and all
my sins
And I need you to hold
on to while this part of me
is dying
Though I haven't kicked
the demons that haunt me
I'm trying
I'm trying

She sat down on the
floor
And said I wish I was
stronger
Right now I feel fragile
as glass
I want to believe you
Believe what's held you
has freed you
And I hate these doubts
that keep on coming back
My parents think I'm
crazy for staying here this
long
But there's nothing more
I want for us than to prove
to them they're wrong
I don't want to be
afraid, I don't want to
think you're lying
And though I haven't
found the faith yet, that I
need
I'm trying
Oh, I'm trying

He asked, do you want me
to leave?
'Cause if you do, you
know I will
But she said, much to
his disbelief
No, I love you still

He said I don't know why
I've been the fool
But I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I
don't curse myself and all
my sins
Then he dropped down to
his knees, by now they both
were crying
Said, I haven't been the
man I want to be
But, I'm trying
Oh,I'm trying
I'm trying
Oh Lord, I'm trying