Not Myself

I never wanted to be this way
I don't recognise myself anymore
There are things I did that I regret
Actions I'm not proud of but I just can't erase
Darkness clouded my mind
I lost control of it all
But still I stand here in front of you now

I fall on my knees before you
Begging for mercy
It's easier to forgive, ooh
Impossible to forget
Darkness clouded my mind
I lost control of it all
But still I stand here in front of you now

Will you forgive?
I never wanted to feel this way
If I can change
I was so weak
Never thought I could fear this way
But now I know

I am not myself
I try, I cry, I beg
I try, I cry, I beg for you
Please stay
I have issues and I have made countless mistakes
But so have you and I've forgiven you so

(Will you forgive?)
I never wanted to feel this way
(If I can change)
(I was so weak)
Never thought I could fear this way
(But now I know)

I know
(Will you forgive?)
I'm not myself
(If I can change)
I was so, I was so week, baby
(I was so weak)
Never thought I could fear this way
(But now I know)