Miasma

Eroding like the phoenix
The rage inside me burns
I've taken my oasis and made it this desert
Vultures flying, gliding, biting, ruin what I have
A skeleton, hallowed out
The outline of a man
Emotions wander to the top
Like a submerged spring
Only to evaporate, steam in heat so blistering
For as long as I can remember
Feels like I've been throwing rocks on the fire
Lying and denying
Doing what I can
Just to keep this dim light shining
I guess it's true what they say
Some coal will never be diamonds
The emptiness
True happiness, I was only given a taste
Until the poison chose to devastate
As far as the smile that grazed my face
Again, the mirage, your ugly hand erased
This arid land I wander offers me no cure
So through the barrenness I must endure
I'm now a mosaic of my broken portrait
And no one but myself to blame for it
Looking out over the overcast and bleak
I know not what I seek
But the coxcomb forms only to break
As I stagger into the red