Half Of Me

Hook
Half of me just walked away/
And the other half is trying not to stay/
Help me see the hope that's past the rain/
Restore the joy within me and/
Speak to me thru the pain/

Verse 1
This kind of news makes a grown man cry/
The kind of man who has the answers but still ask why/
Why are you down cast ole my soul/
My team expects so much from me, I can't let them know/
That I'm not finding joy and my faith's dying slow/
I gotta go on preaching I gotta go on with the show/
Gotta grace the stage, I gotta make the crowd say oh/
Only problem is I'm not believing the words I flow/
So I look to skies I know the hour has come/
Please remove the thorn cuz one half feels numb/
I got these liars in my head asking where my faiths gone/
I don't feel happy and I don't care to fake for them/
They think me showing pain is the denial of Christ/
Because my tears have been my food all day and night/
Half of me hopes in the Lord and knows I will praise again/
The other half wants to an excuse to wild out in my sin/
They say count it all joy, I got questions about how/
The answers are after death but I got question right now/
I know this to shall pass, whether slow or fast/
I loosen the my grip and for you I grasp/ (2x)

Verse 2
He feels he fled temptation to long, so He's tried of fighting/
He no longer finds his marriage exciting/
She's drowning in depression in the rain/
She can't maintain, Lord can you help her ease the pain/
A father gets news that his newborn son has complications/
He has no idea what he's faced with/
He thinks no prom, no college, no athletic fun /
No matter his disabilities I'm not ashamed of my son/
Lord I pray that when his days on earth are done/
He'll understand that you and the son are one/
One families prays together for financial needs/
Father feels inadequate cuz he aint worked in weeks/
He been laid off he may loose their car and home/
He thinks what good is a man who cant provide for his own/
He sees the pain in wife and children's eyes/
Contemplating suicide cuz dead men cry/
Lord give him eyes to see past the pain/
That his value in life, it doesn't come with things/
I know this to shall pass, whether slow or fast/
They are loosing their grip I hope for you they grasp/ (2x)

Verse 3
I wont let this current pain master me/
What is pain actually/
Lets not address it causally but I don't want to fear pain/
Lets count it all joy its is gain/
Dear life is in my palms & I'm holding on
strength is an illusion right along with this calm that I'm on and I'm feeling far gone-
Cause half of me is hoping that my eyes won't open in morn'
Sorrow is my tongue hear my moans
I'm eager for redemption but I know
There's more than meets the eye to the thorns in my side
So I cry refusing all the lies
Pain is my ally when aligned to who you are
There's more to my scars so I know there's more to yours
I'm resting in your arms
I'm resting in the your wrists
I'm pressing with a limp pain is purposed through your gift
I'm strengthening my grip may this faith in u persist
And when this half insists I pray u breathe in me lament
Amazing is your grace cause while I'm holding you it seems
The truth of the matter is your really holding me