Despicable

Here I stay, I bet you wish I was away
Such a potent opinion from someone
Who was never meant to be here
So alone, especially when I was with you
You didn't have to suffer now
I guess you made that crystal clear

Can't you see? That's not me
Well, I guess I wasn't looking
When they slipped something in my drink
Never breaks, just mistakes
It's true I can't do anything right
What difference does it make?

Had your trust until I killed it in distrust
In absentminded slumber I've burned
All those bridges down
I can't stand how all the grains slip through my hands
Persistent state of breakdown
Is running all I have into the ground

Don't try to understand me
Don't read between the lines
You can't comprehend me
It's just a waste of your time
My fortune reads bitter
A million ways to abuse
Playing victim doesn't fit her
I guess I'm born to lose