God I'm Feeling Low

Inside my mind, goin' back and forth
Every single night I ask the Lord
Will He take all these grey clouds away?
'Cause when it rains, I can't stand the storm

Trauma's a pain that I can't ignore
No drive for days, I'm a crashin' course
I'm tryna fight off my depression
I don't know how long I had it for

But I had it long enough to know that it is a part of me
They say "Get over it" as if it isn't hard for me
As if I didn't hear it from everybody else
Givin' me their opinion on everything they feel is wrong with me

These highs and lows, taken a toll
I can't control my feelings now
I just don't know how long I'll go way down this road
I feelin' down, I make a record so they feel me now

Just 'cause you exist don't mean you're alive
And I realized this as time passes by
I can't call it quits, I quit every time
I need to resist this feeling inside

I wish my pain would leave and just exit
Maybe I didn't learned my lesson
I feel like I'm disconnected, 'cause

God, I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm feeling low, don't know where to go, o-oh
God, I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm tired of the pain, of the shit, go away, aye

Yeah, I tell myself that I got this
Then tell myself that I'm not shit
Tearin' down my spirit, and now I'm in my feelings
Man, when am I gonna stop this?

These voices in my head do hit for sure
Comparin' myself 'til I'm insecure
It hits me the worst when I'm feelin' doubt
I'm locked in my thoughts, there's no gettin' out
It's a toxic cycle that I can't break

Too paralyzed to move, so then I just wait
'Til the pressure crushes me with all of this weight
Trust me, I tried to run, but I can't escape
Life's like a loaded gun pointed at my face

Love's like a potent drug, just to numb my pain
Now I try to open up to the ones I'd date
Just to get broken up, yo, what a mistake

God, I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm feeling low, don't know where to go, o-oh
God, I'm feeling low, low, low
I'm tired of the pain, of the shit, go away, aye

I pray the Lord my soul to keep
This nightmare isn't what I dreamed
I cross my hands in agony
I pray, I pray, oh