I Don't Wanna Be Here

I bought all these questions in my mind, and I’m still taking pain
I bought all these homies all around, I just can’t take ‘em away
I’m so overrated, overthinking, but I’m still the same
I am not around me anymore, and I can fail me
I am tryna do the certain thing, but I’m still just right here
I am out of control, and my mind still yelling at me
My purpose to breathe, I’m awake, don’t wanna be here
I don’t wanna be here

I don’t wanna lose myself again
I don’t wanna fall apart again
I don’t wanna stay away from my illness
I don’t wanna be in love again
You always put me down, again
You always call me back, again
You’re still making me feel the blame, again
You’re always by my side, and still

I'm okay with this, I just wanna be at home tonight
Laying in my bed, and forgiving me for all that times
That I should go away, and just start
Try a one more time
Pain will be always by my side, but it's all alright
Why I'm just right here I don't know, but I will survive
For all that times that I couldn't realize
I just can't breathe, no, no, no, I just can't breathe

All this pain in my chest, I can't survive
All this pain in my chest, you just make me remind
All of that pain that I had in the past, but now
I can't survive because you're not by my side
You always put me down
You always get me down
You're always in the clouds
You're always getting me out of your mind

You're always trying to make me feel guilty
You're always trying to get off of my life
You're getting out of the way
And now I'm going to kill myself