(To Be) Judas

In every new place, in everything new
I try to adapt, I try to belong
For a while I think I'm home
But I cannot stay
I have to go

A new kind of feeling, a new kind of pain
I try to accept, how can I be wrong
I honestly thought I was home
But I cannot stay
Just let me go

I know what I should feel
And I know that I don't
Can you live with the choice I've made
'Cause I don't wanna fail you

Define me
And explain me
'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more

Bring truth to the core now, I come undone
I don't know life, I don't know when
Everything just changed
And I must let go
Of your hand

Like the burden I'd keep as a child
I long to spread my wings
The sky looks like heaven
And the grass is greener
Greener on the other side

I know what I should feel
And I know that I don't
Can you live with an open door
'Cause I don't wanna lose you

Am I really the bad guy here
Or am I just a terrible liar
Am I even in touch with reality
Or am I hopelessly blind

Like the burden I'd keep as a child
I long to spread my wings
The sky looks like heaven
And the grass is greener
Greener on the other side

I know what I should feel
And I know that I don't
Can you live with a broken heart
'Cause I don't wanna kill you

Define me
And explain me
'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more
Define me
And explain me
'Cause my head and my heart don't synchronize no more