Drinkin'

I had to hate myself
Before I drank myself
To death Inside a week of giving in
And I had to hate myself
Before I drank myself
But somehow I got used to it

I said it's normal
You said it’s over
You said to call me
When you're boring and sober
I said I love you
Your name's in my skin
You said it isn’t cool to glamorize addiction

'Cause I've been drinking
To form a buffer
And we've been keeping
Things from each other
Only I can't keep these problems to myself
Yeah fuck everyone else

I finally hit a wall
Face down in a bathroom stall
Yeah why is life so literal?
And how could you end it all
Just before last call
Yeah I take that shit personal

I can't help myself
I can't help myself
I can't help from being a burden
I can't help myself
I can’t help myself
I can’t help myself from not helping myself yeah when it counts

This is an exercise in apathy
And all the shitty things
It's done for me