At Death's Gate

All those lies I've let myself believe to be true
That my life is through and I should just suicide
I cast aside, now that I know the real truth
I should've known that those words never came from you

Long have I tried to convince myself that I could hide from you
But that was in vain, because I never left your sight
I've amplified my sorrow, 'cause that was all I knew
I should've known that that was never true

How could I ever be so oblivious that I've made my own prison?
What a fool I was to believe that there was nothing left for me, than to drown in my own misery

I've been mesmerised by blatant lies
I drove myself towards insanity
I let myself be paralysed
I wallowed in sorrow

Until I longed for death, when there was nothing left
From hope bereft, waiting for my dying breath
But you have shown how I could overcome
How I could be strong and that I belong

I used to be all on my own
I couldn't believe that night could turn to dawn
Now that I see all that you've done for me
An epiphany knowing I'm not alone

My own pride keeps trying to put the blame on me
That I should've handled things differently
But that was the lie which was the cause for all my misery
The downward spiral from which I am freed

How could I ever be so oblivious that I've made my own prison?
What a fool I was to believe that there was nothing left for me, than to drown in my own misery

I used to be all on my own
I couldn't believe that night could turn to dawn
Now that I see all that you've done for me
An epiphany knowing I'm not alone