Why Do I Breathe?

Can we pretend
that I'm not so dillusional
What's going on I can't control
this feeling that I've never known
It crawls way deep inside of me
I never asked to be me

When you can't understand me
only makes you want to hate me
but i like it when you hate me
cuz it makes me feel like god

what if I make it to my place
what happens when there's nothing left to chase
another day I wish away, Another day I ask myself
Why do I breathe

I'm incabable of the simple things
that make you laugh and smile
The way I see it you owe me time
cuz i spent so much on you

When you can't understand me
only makes you want to kill me
but i like it when you kill me
cuz it makes me feel like god

And if I sell my soul I'll take you anywhere
You want
All my life, I've been right
you proved me wrong in just one night
Why do I even breathe