Wish Myself Away

I feel like I’m high above the earth
And distance means that my voice remains unheard
And of all the smooth ways I could have chosen
Over the years when I’ve been frozen
I always picked the one
That would lead me further away

Whenever I tried to climb up the wall
To catch a clearer glimpse, I was not afraid to fall
And of all the right words I could have spoken
Over the years when I was broken
I always picked the ones
That would lead me further away

And if my life appears so small
It’s where I still belong
There’s not a thing I could recall
I’m not dividing right from wrong
And if I fall again
Then I’m inclined to stay right down
‘Cause in the end all that I want
Is to wish myself away

With every turmoil in my head
That I have lost, I never felt like I was dead
And of all the cool things I could have dreamt of
Over the years, I smelt your scent, I only dreamt of you
And it leads me further away

I don’t want to make this right
I don’t want to get inside
I never felt so left alone by anyone
I do not choose to fight
But stay out of the light
To reach out of the dark and try to find you there again