Wish I Wasn't To Me

I'm drinkin' from a broken glass
And wishin' I could freeze the past
But nothing ever seems to stay the same

I'm tired of the consequence
From using someone's innocence
Addiction grows from going to her place

And deep to my bones
I fought to find an answer
To wanting more
And constantly turn fake

But if I could escape the words
Only redefine them down to whispers
Dear God, sometimes I wish I wasn't me
I wish I wasn't me

My light keeps turning red to black
I'm meaning to keep looking back
But sometimes it's so hard to keep the faith

I'm feeling fuckin' bottomless
I'm cursed with always wanting someone else
And not be happy where I am
(Where I am)

And deep to my bones
I fought to find an answer
To wanting more
And constantly turn fake

But if I could escape the words
Only redefine them down to whispers
Dear God, sometimes I wish I wasn't me